Tomorrow isn't promised..

Do you ever talk to the stars?

2009-12-29T15:15:00.000+08:00

Its a shame when a Leo loses his charm..

Con Te Partiro

2009-12-28T16:37:00.001+08:00

Too much Ferrero for my own good.

Free Flow & Friends!

2009-12-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

What an amazing night at home club, free beer exists! And I stayed over at babe's, which is always a plus. Don't forget the 3 plates of maggi goreng!

Didn't feel too good the next day though. Really thankful for the heated tummy rub :)

How can I be so heartless?

2009-12-26T15:44:00.001+08:00

I want to go eat dinner with you and your granny, but that will mean my mum will be eating alone.
If I eat with my mum, I'll get scolded for random shit.

I jio you buy iPod and help you sell, you better treat me supper! :D

I feel good!

2009-12-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

Cause I accomplished something today :)
My mini Christmas tree looks damn good! :D
My final masterpiece looks damn good too! :D
Managed to get my old set of speakers working too! :D
AND I set up my home theater system! :D

Its not snowing... but its raining :/
heavily.

Happy 20th Birthday Darling :)

2009-12-22T14:50:00.000+08:00

I know we fought and it got blown up pretty badly. Its my fault for starting drama and making a big fuss out of things. I'm sorry. I'm glad we made up before the rest came over and you could celebrate your birthday with a smile :) I hope you like your present alot, spent quite awhile trying to decide what to get you. Didn't really plan much for your birthday, hope you don't get disappointed later.. :x

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!

1 for 1 iPod Nano

2009-12-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

Wireless@sg account? Check.
Laptop? Check/
Pictures of website? Check.
Desire for a free iPod? Check.

Singaporean kiasu a.k.a passionate-for-free-stuff spirit?
Check! Check! Check!

Events Manager

2009-12-19T17:50:00.001+08:00

That'll be quite a fun job you reckon?

Repeat after me!

2009-12-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

Cost is easy.
Cost is easy.
Cost is easy.
Cost is easy.
Cost is easy.
Cost is easy.
Cost is ea..
Cost is..
Cost...
Cos..
Co..
...

How to study?

2009-12-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

Tried out a suggestion from a discussion in a forum to help with distractions. Putting on a earpiece and listening to classical or jazz at a reasonable volume helps me focus! Keeps me in the zone.. It might work for you!

By the way, I didn't mean to 'ignore' you today darling, was definitely not intentional but still I apologize. I was really mentally exhausted and kinda spaced out for awhile staring at the brochure. As for avoiding the things I don't like to hear, I'll learn to be more mature about it. Je regrette, mon chéri!

I am so tired...

2009-12-14T12:38:00.001+08:00

3:21am

2009-12-14T03:22:00.001+08:00

time to pack up,
light one up,
and tuck in for the night.

peace.

Phone Calls at Midnight

2009-12-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

Where we talk about serious nonsense and important rubbish
Where we confide in each other and pour our hearts out about everything
Where toothy grins co-exist harmoniously with deafening awkward silence
Where laughter can melt hearts and arguments can burn down cities
Where I might randomly shed a tear of joy as I realize I'm in love and that thought just overwhelms me
Where I can at least hear your voice when you're miles away
Where I feel like I'm almost right beside you, almost..

And I wish that it will never end.

Goodnight..
Bye love..
I love you..

Then the sound of the dial tone that can shatter glass and rip apart an already broken heart.

Woah..

2009-12-13T21:55:00.001+08:00

This is the first time you actually ended a conversation with me because there's nothing left to say.
I don't know how to feel..

So...

2009-12-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

Let's just sit around and wait for our wildest dreams to come true.
Cause they will.. won't they? :/

Paranoid

2009-12-13T16:52:00.003+08:00

Its freaky to know that someone climbed into my house yesterday and took the cashcard from my mum's car.

Woke up to a bad dream today, can't remember specifics, but I felt like shit. Poopy shit.

Oh shit!

2009-12-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

Wonder if my future stalker interviewers will go find data on me through the web and stumble upon that post :/

Technology is a double edged sword I tell you.
10 minutes of fun,
Lifetime of unemployment.

BCOMM: The Reality

2009-12-12T21:12:00.001+08:00

I am a highly unmotivated individual whose biggest dream is to receive a big fat paycheck and have zero responsibilities. I am able to work alone or in groups as long as there's not much work to be done. I am very enthusiastic to prove to myself that this world sucks and everyone is boring as I have just graduated from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. My favorite modules in school are non-existent. I fucking hate lectures and tutorial time is spent surfing the goddamn web. I go to school for the sole purpose of Hot Pants Hunting (HPH) and yes, it is an official term invented by yours truly. Before you call me a pervert, let it be known that I did not force these young ladies to wear uncomfortable and insanely short denim shorts. I am a mere onlooker enjoying the scenery, different because I admit it. The only reason they wear it is to show off their legs and for some, their ass if they manage to find shorts that are short enough, because these shorts could never ever possibly be comfortable. FBT is comfortable so I got no say there, I quote a female friend: 'I like wearing FBTs, it feels like I'm wearing nothing'.

Actually, I don't really go to school for the sake of looking at female legs. I can do so from the comfort of my own home with my laptop. I go to school cause I am fucking told to do so. Sorry for the strong language, I am just really PASSIONATE about this job interview. Speaking of passionate, I will passionately arrive for work late without fail and passionately do nothing but anticipate my 1pm lunch break. I will eat and have a cigarette during this period before resuming my wait. This second period of waiting will be different though, as I will instead, passionately wait for 6pm. At 6pm, I will passionately countdown 30minutes because that is when I will pack my shit and run out of your office door. I know that if I leave at 6pm you will think I am not hardworking, that is why I work so hard for a good impression. By the way there is no such thing as overtime in my vocabulary.

I await your favourable reply regarding the outcome of this interview.

Thank you for your fucking time.

When right feels wrong.

2009-12-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

You can give me the fastest computer,
lag free internet,
the smoothest pen,
the whitest piece of paper,
the most complete notes,
a stapler that never runs out of staples,
the most conducive environment,
the best weather,
zero distractions,
make me feel guilty,
make me feel panic,
give me a reward
or remind me of the past..

but my hearts just not here.

It exists is a place where dreamers dream.

I'd rather watch grass grow,
I'd rather watch paint dry..

Somebody save me.

Young and fucking DANGEROUS!

2009-12-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

It's a good movie! The eat pau girl quite hot! :x
Can't wait to catch the sequel! Confirm exciting man!
Not happy just whack! :D

Young and damn fucking DANGEROUS

2009-12-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

It's a good movie man! Can't wait to catch the sequel!

Permanence

2009-12-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

No, there's no coming back from nights like these..

We'll write melancholy anthems, to commemorate disaster.
Bookmark this page cause this is where things fall apart.
Remember these days cause this is how the downward spirals start
These are the things I never wanted to say,
This is a place I never wanted to be...
So let it all come crashing down on me.

This is permanence.
This is youth's last dance.
This is the end of days that I could look you in the eye and tell you nothings wrong.

These are the things that we never ever wanted to know,
with smiling scars across our throats,
If the good die young we'll fucking live forever.

Santa Claus, if you exist, here is my wish-list in advance so you have time to prepare..

2009-12-07T00:51:00.003+08:00

Desktop PC with the following specs:
Core i5-750 + HD 5850 + 4GB 1333Mhz + 24" Full HD Monitor

SteelSeries Siberia V2 headphones with USB Soundcard

Razer Mamba Mouse

Razer Lycosa Keyboard

3M MPro120 Projector

Apple Macbook 13" White

Nissan GT-R

Ikea GALANT Table

Mirage MX 5.1 Speakers

Denon AV Receiver

PS3 Slim

Numark PT01 Turntable

Technic 1200s

Serato Scratch Live

Some good ergonomic chair that won't cause me backaches no more

and maybe a Burberry handbag, its actually for my girlfriend cause I'm too broke to her buy anything

Thanks Santa I hope I didn't ask for too much.
Cookies, milk and Ferrero Rocher are in the fridge.. help yourself :)

Rainy Saturday

2009-12-05T15:23:00.001+08:00

Gloom Gloom Gloom Gloomy.
I feel so restless, everything is so draggy.
I feel so hungry but I just won't go down to eat.
I want out.

Everything reeks of gloom.

B IS NOT FOR AEROPLANE! : (

2009-12-03T02:41:00.003+08:00

I fixed my tagboard & added twitter to my blog!
Fucking 1337! html rulez d00d!

Ringxiety

2009-11-29T22:50:00.003+08:00

You know how some people will think that their phones have vibrated
but when they take it out to check it actually didn't ring?

Yea, that's me.. but I'm worst.

I take it out to check even if I didn't feel or hear a thing.

I've got a swollen left feet

2009-11-29T14:54:00.002+08:00

and it really really hurts. I can't walk properly. I wish I was in a hospital laying around with no responsibilities of school.

While making my way down from the rooftop last night I missed a step and fell down 2-3 steps. The bottom of my left feet caught the edge of a step on the way down and next thing I knew I was on the floor, nothing but pain going through my head.

Eco-efficiency project is near impossible with the limited amount of information on the web.
Wisp is not going to be a walk in the park, even if it is, I can't walk cause my fucking feet hurts.

Sundays can suck so hard.

I love harry potter

2009-11-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

No More Mr. Nice Guy!

2009-11-25T00:30:00.003+08:00

I realize what I am..
Obama, its time for change!

Its like someone wrote an article about me without putting my name on it..
Freakish enlightenment!

It was selfish of me, really.
I will start to love myself.

I feel like I'm a burden to you.. : (

2009-11-22T17:14:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I lost your phone, this is the worst feeling in the world..
If only I checked my pockets a few more times..

Sometimes I wish I could save you..

2009-11-21T16:24:00.003+08:00

From all the horrible tutorials, projects, assignments, online discussions and the most hated reports.
I wish I could make the terrible things in school go away, or maybe I could just take you away from all of it.

I admire you because you are good at school.
I admire you more now, because I get to see how its a struggle and how many hours of mind blasting hard work must be put in.

Hang tough okay?

How legendary can we make the night be?

2009-11-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

SUPER LAMBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Darling paid for my petrol! :D ^.^!!!

2009-11-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

I think I'm nice :x

2009-11-18T15:11:00.001+08:00

Winston Churchill

2009-11-15T16:37:00.001+08:00

"The era of procrastination, of half-measures, of soothing and baffling expedients, of delays, is coming to its close.
In its place we are entering a period of consequences."

Sensational!

2009-11-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

A tip off
Acting suspiciously
Caught for taking pictures of cops

Fucking media outlets need to stop making shit up.
How exactly did Jamie Waylett get caught?

Paranormal Activity

2009-11-15T12:46:00.002+08:00

I parked my car across the driveway and briskly walked to my gate.. It was a cold wet night.
The neighborhood was dreadfully quiet, making the drizzle sound deafening.
I unlocked my door and headed in..
Climbing up the stars in the dark made my imagination run wild.
The scenes in the movie I just caught kept replaying.
I looked over my shoulder ever so often, maybe it was paranoia, maybe...
I don't wanna talk about it.
Washing my face became a difficult process, I have to admit, I was scared.

And I fuck with you not, I heard footsteps while I wash brushing my teeth.

Then the most comforting sound I could ever hear spread relief all over me.
It was my mum, scolding me for coming home late.

Unlearn

2009-11-13T01:37:00.000+08:00

Born into a culture that teaches you to keep taking not giving.
Will you live your life spending? Or will you spend your life living?

Unlearn.

Capitalism : A Love Story

2009-11-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

I love Micheal Moore <3

Skip to my lou

2009-11-12T10:55:00.004+08:00

I remember the days where I would skip lectures without any apparent reason.
Just the thought of sitting inside was dreadful. The thought was more dreadful than actually sitting inside the theater itself.

We would go find food, go watch movies, go home, go to someones house, go queensway and whatever.
There was once we just stood outside the lecture hall for the duration of the lecture. We got bored so we started spinning around so we got giddy and high.

I felt this immense sense of freedom.

I got the urge...

2009-11-11T19:37:00.001+08:00

to shit every 2 seconds.

40 Things to do while bored in class

2009-11-10T12:20:00.001+08:00

38. Write a screenplay about a diabetic Swedish girl who can't swim.

To my left

2009-11-09T15:07:00.001+08:00

<-------------------------------- <3

I can be such an asshole.

2009-11-04T10:40:00.000+08:00

Siberia v2

2009-11-01T15:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a nice person.
I wonder how people perceive me..
I mean, friends ask me out and wanna hang out with me, I can't be that bad right?

What makes a bad person?
Intentions and/or actions?
Killing to protect.
Lying to save.
Game face to get in her pants.

HUH? @_@

Okay Brian tell me a little bit about yourself..

2009-10-28T14:13:00.001+08:00

Hi my name is Brian, and this is the third time I'm taking this module.

"Fuck.." Brian thought to himself...

Mouse and Mousepad

2009-10-27T18:55:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like doing anything...
Holidays where are you?

Can you love me?

2009-10-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

你可不可以爱我?
可不可以想我?
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握..
别害怕我难过..
告诉我你真实的感受..
至少忐忑已告一段落.

National Environment Agency

2009-10-22T17:23:00.001+08:00

No dustbin.
Threw the cigarette in a cup on the floor.
$300 gone.

Simple as that.
Painful as that.
Regretful as that.

School Blues

2009-10-22T14:27:00.001+08:00

Lectures can be so lonely..
Lunch breaks can be so lonely..
I ran out cigarettes..
My charger doesn't work..

Poop.

Whats Happening?

2009-10-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

I really don't know..
You sounded so harsh on the phone..

Asian Values

2009-10-21T12:50:00.003+08:00

Study hard. Work harder.
Take whatever your parents give you and go as far as you can.

Then move out as soon as you get a decent stable job. Yea its tough. But you work for yourself.

You wanna wash the dishes? Do it. You want a shitty messy smelly house. Be your own guest.
Smoke at home? Sure! Party every weekend? Right on!

Living under your parents roof only means one thing, you live by their rules.
You be their bitch for life. You know it. Fucking Asian kampong mentality. Harsh :O

Yes I know, they brought you up, its only right to take care of them and stay with them and listen to them. But this isn't fucking America boy, there aren't any fucking weekend barbecues or thanksgiving dinners or christmas gatherings. They're just gonna criticize every fucking single little thing you do. Cause they have nothing better else to do.

Sometimes its for your own good they scold you. Most of the time they're just being assholes cause they have power.

Of course you still give money to your parents and visit once in awhile to remember why you moved out in the first place. Haha!

Remember this.. The first person to ever whoop your ass wasn't the school bully. It was your parents. Or grandparents :/

I talk shit, I probably won't ever move out ha ha!

Piss.

flogs and butterfries

2009-10-20T12:28:00.001+08:00

class is pretty awkward. for me at least.
school isn't that bad afterall :)

Melt away in the summer air.

2009-10-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

I'm so scared things will never be the same and it will never be as good again.
Am I over thinking into the situation? Maybe..
I felt like last night was our last chance. I don't know why.
I felt like the world was about to end.
I felt terrified.

Hihi

2009-10-15T16:30:00.004+08:00

Paper heart could not be better.. watching it with you I smiled all the way.
My heart flipped a thousand times throughout the movie.
Dinner at Verve.
Dessert at Nectarie.
Photos at an MRT station.
Laser surprise :)

Bliss.. I love you.

Now you're at work.. wish I could take you to Hawaii..

Sam Raimi

2009-10-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

Warcraft Movie.
2011.
Awesome.

I wanna eat

2009-10-13T11:58:00.001+08:00

some motherfucking lamb chops.
as slow as ministry of steak was... the chicken was good.
my meat craving has not been satisfied though.
roar.

One Phone Call

2009-10-11T22:11:00.002+08:00

its crazy how one phone call can solve all your problems.
all the stuff you've been worrying about.
all the bad feelings.

just one phone call.

and 2 days in Malaysia.

and 2 people who met.

everything fell into place. except the toilet lock.

Until you find something worth dying for..

2009-10-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

You never really live..

Wut?

2009-10-11T21:37:00.003+08:00

I'm having a chocolate bar at a chocolate bar.

Baking is a piece of cake.

Ha?

You know...

2009-10-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

Most people would give up their seats to the 'needy'
I would anyway. But sometimes its just a totally honest 'didn't notice'

Just wondering why can't the needy people just ask nicely if they could have the seat? :/
I'm not complaining by the way. Just... wondering out loud.

Wa Wa Wee Wa

2009-10-11T19:41:00.001+08:00

Hong Kong was torture.

Malaysia was 2 first times.
Pit bikes. mountain trails and a love that never fails.

2 more days :)

Let's talk about time

2009-10-07T22:12:00.003+08:00

right now. I don't feel time passing me by at all.
whenever I think about what time it is, all of a sudden things around me freeze.
each day I just shut my mind off, go about doing things mindlessly..
and when its finally night time and I lie on the bed next to a wall..
and realise another day has gone by..
so meaningless, so pointless, so purposeless..
sleepless because I'm in a room filled with cigarette smoke, not mine..
sleepless because the television is just a little bit too fucking loud, not me watching..
sleepless because sometimes tears, not mine, fall to the floor a little too earthquake like..

and all I can do is think of you.

I am selfish, I am wrong.

2009-10-03T15:25:00.001+08:00

Somehow I feel like I did something wrong and I'm at fault.
But I don't know what I did.
I'm confused but there is no time to be confused.
I have to rush to get things done or I'm going to get it from my mum.

Hong Kong is not as fun as you think.

"Okay."

*Ouch.*

PolyHacker : Exam Result Slip

2009-10-02T15:27:00.003+08:00

Hi guys, this is something that I have always wanted to do and I guess there wouldn't be any time better to start. Basically throughout my time in NP I looked to google for alot of my questions about how the school system works but I didn't get any results. I remained clueless and was forced to just go through with some stuff and see what would happen. So here we go! First hack!

I know most people don't get good results. Most of those people have parents who don't know when their kids are having their exams and when the results will be out. NP's way of countering that is to send a letter to your house and the only way you thought you could hide it from your parents is to intercept the letter. This would be really difficult to pull off cause you'll have no idea at what time the postman will arrive. What you should do is to find a house that belongs to someone you know like an adult friend or your really cool uncle and ask them if they would mind if the letter was sent to them. Go to NPAL>Profile>Change Address and change your address to their's and VIOLA! No more worrying!

Just remember to study harder next semester alright? ;)

Might only be applicable to Ngee Ann students. I personally do not endorse any of the ideas and concepts and readers please do not try this at home. This is for educational and discussion purposes only.

Interval Training

2009-09-30T15:38:00.001+08:00

High Intensity Training at Intervals burns more fat than sustained moderate intensity cardio.

None of that shit matters if I can't get out of bed :/

I can't think of a title :/

2009-09-30T13:51:00.003+08:00

I just woke up not too long ago. I feel weird.
Probably cause of Bangkok, now that I'm just sitting here with nothing to do.
Actually I should start un-packing my shiznit, but I'm feeling very lazy :x
Not that there's much to un-pack, I only bought 3 T-shirts! And I'm very proud of myself.

I'm also very hungry so I should be going down to grab something to munch on.
I might be working soon, which means more money and me leading a less purposeless life by doing something purposeless. HUH?! :)

I wonder if I'll get to meet baby today. Then again technically I'm not invited, and it'll probably be awkward for me :/

I've got to pay my fucking $70 dollar fine! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Bangkok

2009-09-26T00:07:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow.
We're all checked in and ready to go..
Only problem is, I'm the only one who isn't gonna sit with the rest.
Thank god there is a single seat at the back, I won't feel comfortable sitting with a stranger.
Can't wait for airplane food, CX never fails in that department.
The smell of an airplane still makes me nauseous though.

Oh mother!

2009-09-25T16:46:00.001+08:00

The redundancy of folding your clothes when you're going to hang it up.

Add Memo:

2009-09-25T16:04:00.002+08:00

I searched youtube for "Steve Aoki Zouk Warp'
Theres 2 HD videos uploaded. Hair Stand!
A night not be missed but missed nonetheless.

I'm heading off to Johor later, roam around, dinner with my mum there.
It's something that she likes to do. I hate it, but only because its just both of us and I always get scolded somehow. Like a kid.

Aoki.... blurrrghhghghhhh!

2009-09-21T18:08:00.004+08:00

Didn't catch Steve Aoki! :(
Got high for the first time in a long time. Awesome as fuck.
And I didn't get high alone, Jun was above & beyond I swear. For awhile anyway.

Do not drink 2 super lambos if you have never clubbed before. Serious.

Looking on the bright side, I got to eat hotcakes the next morning :)

No Latest Hootz

2009-09-19T13:49:00.002+08:00

So my mum knows. I've told her everything.
No huge weight off my mind though, I still actually have to go through the appeal procedures.

Reckless Landing's Sabah trip has finally been booked after much delay and hoo-haa due to it being fully booked for awhile. Still stoked.

Steve Aoki tomorrow night. Damn excited. 1! 2! Woot! Woot!

Went to Changi with babe to eat dim sum but closed already. Ta ma de! Ended up with Kaya toast. Police took down our IDs for stopping outside Changi's landing strip. Went back to Chomp Chomp to eat some more cause we cool like that.

Time to transfer money I owe :(

Batam Part II

2009-09-17T18:27:00.004+08:00

I just got back from Batam yesterday. Pretty crazy trip!
Better than the first one cause we got to do more stuff this time..

We went to Jimmi's house at Sentosa Cove first, it wasn't finished with the renovations yet but it already looked so awesome! The backyard had this huge ass pool and a river with a platform and everything! We went to eat lunch at One°15 on Segways and golf buggys after that, very very very cool. Its such a peaceful area to live in, everything just feels relaxed and the pace is definitely slower there.

Headed over to some place beside Katong Shopping Centre to play Left4Dead before going to Batam. Highest resolution + Widescreen + 2.1 speakers that worked + Decent keyboard + Decent Mouse + Huge mouse-pad + No lag = Good LAN session :D Think we played for 4 hours straight!

Batam was amazing! We ate like no tomorrow!
100+ Satays, Chocolate Cheese Murtabak, Nasi Padang overload, Room Service for breakfast, A&W Root Beer Float and the list goes on.. I ate even though I was full to the brim, probably gained 50kg from all that food.

The land cruiser wasn't around so we had to drive 2 cars around on the second day. I got to drive an rx-8! :D The traffic there was insane. Red lights were ignored, motorbikes were everywhere. Cars tried to cut into my lane every 10 seconds.

At night we bought some crazy ass awesome fireworks! Like the real deal fireworks, the ones that go BOOM! and light up the sky with pretty colours! No chinese new year sparkler bullshit. It was pretty amazing, I felt like a kid lighting up the fireworks and running away as fast as I could. We almost got hit and shot at by the blasts which was pretty funny :/

When we got back to Singapore, we went to the same place again to play Left4Dead, this time Tommi joined us. Balanced 4v4 = 10x the fun. Another 4+ hours of Left4Dead with chicken chops and orange juice till 3am. Finally took a cab back home.

I'm mortal again.

Chunk Fest

2009-09-12T12:27:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what the fuck is Chunk Fest.
I think there's gonna be bands and ice cream.
And we're also finally gonna go to Marina Barrage together!

Monday is Batam! I'm pretty stoked! :) Too bad Thongs can't make it.
I just uploaded Zhitao's techno video on facebook, think he is enjoying his 5 minutes of fame :x

I woke up 29 minutes ago, my teeth remains unbrushed, my face remains unwashed.
Lazy bum bum bum.

Technology & Waiting

2009-09-11T17:10:00.002+08:00

The price of the digital camera I wanted dropped by $50!
I probably should wait some more though, I don't need the camera yet..

I'm going to shower and head out to eat $6 Waffle Ice Cream!
Living the life innit?!

Fight Club

2009-09-07T02:58:00.002+08:00

“Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need.
We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War’s a spiritual war… our Great Depression is our lives.”

Fly like paper get high like planes

2009-09-07T02:12:00.004+08:00

Went to Butter Factory for the first time on Saturday. Larry was awesome for signing us in. Thank you! :)
DJ played my songs, I got my drinks, happy happy, I like :) Baby's fuji-instax was really really cool. First photo turned out really great!
I got curry on my shirt :(
Saw Messiah and his friend inside. God has Messiah changed or what? Haha!

Someone didn't feel too well, so we left early :( But I stayed over!
Sunday had zero loneliness but goodbye was oddly difficult even though I didn't show it.
I fell ill for the day which sucked bad. I need to pop them vitamin C pills pronto!

Someone high beamed me on my way home and I just didn't feel like taking shit from anyone so I chased his mazda 3 ass down BKE, turns out he was either AHBNA (all high beam no action) or just scared of me (cause I look damn intimidating with my lee hsien long haircut and rimless specs what). Parking at IMM today was a bitch too, mr. bigshot security guard doesn't know that I have my deck in the trunk and will smack his head with it truck-side if he continued running his mouth. Pfft. Road Rage. I realize I can't really skate but I feel very safe with my deck in the boot :/

Oh ya I also got my hair cut just now!
The DJ Salon guy was not there, damn sad! In the end I went to Pointer to let the china dudes cut :) I'm not sure if I like it, but I don't really think I care, just glad that the floppy centipede fringe is gone and not gouging my eyes out.

My mum thinks I'm going to do well this semester but I'm going to get dismissed cause I failed 2-3 modules.
I don't know what to do... :(
If my appeal becomes successful. I have 3 more semesters to go. That means no more year 3.5 for me. Its a full on 4 years, provided that I don't fail anymore. I suck at studying.

I want Terriyaki chicken now.

Final Goodbye

2009-08-26T00:35:00.003+08:00

This will probably be my last post here on hellomynameisbrian..
I've decided to move on to bigger and better things, namely :

himynameisbrian

Haha! Check it out! :)

Long Distance Relationship

2009-08-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

AYE towards Keppel Road.

Where I had my first accident.
Where I always tried to beat the jam.
Where I always got caught in jams.
Where I had to strategically choose my lanes.
Where I got lost and drove to Outram.
The only place I can get to Orchard Road from confidently.
Where I drove to pick you off work.
Where I drove you to work. Once.
Where we panicked over Clemenceau and Merchant.
Where we saw numerous GT-Rs.

Not too long ago feels pretty long ago.

Postcards

2009-08-24T17:59:00.001+08:00

When you see me sit by myself, you'll think that I'm waiting for someone else.
But I'm wishing for somewhere else, I'm wishing for somewhere else

To Do List

2009-08-23T17:26:00.002+08:00

I just fried 10 eggs. They taste horrible, shouldn't have added milk.

1. Feed Dangle
2. Feed brianchiong the Uni
3. Study
4. Pay ERP Fine
5. Change address

Ooo life is so simple.

No messages on my phone :(

:x

2009-08-23T14:20:00.001+08:00

I spoketh too soon..
You did call :)

Today is Habour City for you.
And you seem like you're enjoying yourself.
How could you not? :D

IMM for me. Haha!
Spaghetti too. As usual.

Every second, I swear.

2009-08-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

It just started pouring.
I'm blogging excessively :/
How much worst can a night get huh?

Can't take it anymore. 23rd August 12:29.

2nd letter.. opened.

Not a motion from the telephone Part II

2009-08-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm still waiting for your call. But I think you fell asleep already.
But you promised :(

Waiting for your, call I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

GPS FAIL.

2009-08-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

PIE? KPE? TPE? SLE? CTE?
TURN LEFT? TURN RIGHT?
SPEED CAMERA? RED LIGHT CAMERA?
PARKING FEES? ERP CHARGES?

DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER!

NO ROADS LEAD TO HONG KONG! :(

Not a motion from the telephone

2009-08-22T23:02:00.003+08:00

I've never wanted to hear from you more than ever before today.
I almost did a backflip when I heard your voice just now.
I cannot breath.
I cannot think straight.
I drag my feet cause they feel as if they're 100kg heavier.

I want to smash and destroy everything.
I want to hug everyone and tell them I love them.
I don't know how to feel :(

Letters to you

2009-08-22T14:06:00.009+08:00

Dear Baoru,

I hope you're having the time of your life in Hong Kong.
Its a short 4 days but its gonna feel like 400 years.
Didn't get to see you off this morning. That sucked. Bad.
The worst part of all was when I was in the car about to leave the airport and it really hit me.
I gave you one last call and when we had to hang up my heart sank deeper than the deepest oceans and flipped 900 degrees like Tony Hawk.
It then proceeded to explode in the most boring way. Internally.
That means that everyone around me thinks I'm normal even though inside there's a million things and nothing spinning around my mind all at once.
Thankfully I'm still alive, just that I don't have a heart anymore until you come back and make me whole again.

I am tired as hell! Better catch some sleep and start on my Taxation while you and your family go 'Dim sum then Tsim Sha Tsui'. Envy Envy Envy :(
I forgot to pass you my octopus card by the way. Wonder if you remember :/

Here's a little something I wrote on my phone while I was in the moment:

22nd August 9:24am

"I'm sitting outside the lighthouse family clinic. Don't think my favourite doctor is working today.
Ooo I smell Davidoff Coolwater :/
I just finished the last ice mint in the box.

I suddenly missed you a lot when you had to put down the phone and fly.
I thought about all the things I usually do at Hong Kong and how nice it would be if I was on that plane with you right now.
Re-discover Hong Kong with you.

Wonder what I should tell the doctor..
Singapore suddenly seems very quiet and lonely without you.
For once I'd willingly go to Hong Kong."

Thats about it..

In case you're wondering how Dangle is doing, hes fine :)
I've fed him some Kit Kat and we're now sharing stories about how you bully us.
Might catch a movie and get ice cream later, he tells me you never buy him ice cream :/

Oh ya! I might also miss you so much tonight I'll just open all the letters! :(

Sweating.

2009-08-19T21:51:00.002+08:00

But I like my long sleeve flannel.
It feels cozy like I'm being hugged.

You're leaving on a jet plane. I know when you're coming back again.

2009-08-19T18:22:00.005+08:00

Still, this news is hard to digest.
Now I know how you felt. Call it karma.
Crazy, but I miss you already.

I really hope you have the time of your life.
I wish I could go with you, show you what 'my' Hong Kong is like..
Bring you around to the places that I usually go to alone, thinking to myself..

'If only she was here with me'

I believe that the love I have for waffles and ice cream is pure & true

2009-08-16T19:04:00.004+08:00

My Mum always told me, more like scold me but anyway, she always tells me that the people I hang out with are very important. I'm sure most people get that shit 24/7.

I've come to realize that its true.
B is very important.

"You've been orientated all your lives! Now this is your disorientation!"

My turn to apologize

2009-08-16T03:33:00.001+08:00

I sounded like a jerk on the phone.
You called me at work to tell me how you felt but I was so cold.
Still can't help but feel bad. Sorry dear :(

When I was 12

2009-08-16T03:28:00.002+08:00

I got new indie rock songs and I smoked a cigar.

I feel so damn bad-ass.

Do you feel bad-ass?

4 months :)

2009-08-15T12:57:00.003+08:00

Everything is cool now although I'm still a little jumpy.

Ate Thai Express for the 2nd time in my life. But its kinda like the first time cause I don't remember my first time. The food was damn good. Green Curry, Pad Thai and Tom Yum.
Swensens closed already by the time we finished walking around. Had to make our own Frosted Chocolate Malt.

Saw a mysterious pair of slippers at Baoru's doorstep. FREAK OUT!
Honestly, I was a little scared and a little worried. Thank god 'demon lady' wasn't home, or else we would've wasted a coupon! Haha!

Wash Car Wash Car gogogo.

My turn to be angry.

2009-08-13T15:26:00.002+08:00

I hate how you're talking to my girlfriend about it right now.
You wanna make me look like the bad guy? Like how you made your boyfriend look like the bad guy? Fine.
I'm glad you're happy that shes pretty frustrated, disappointed and maybe a little pissed at me now.
I take back what I said. I do care. I personally want to fucking hit you. Hows that for caring?
Maybe I can tag team with your boyfriend and we'll both hit you. Maybe cause you deserve it. Maybe cause you fucking like it.

Use my girlfriend, hack my blog.

I cooled off and was gonna take it down already but this.. Fuck.

Nevermind how it all turns out.
How am I gonna face my girlfriend now?

Above & Beyond

2009-08-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

I feel lighter.. somehow.

Dandyism

2009-08-12T02:42:00.001+08:00

Style
Fashion
Clothes
Trends
Clubs
Bars
Cigarettes
Alcohol
Money
Fame
Design

Maybe.

Oh my!

2009-08-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

Beaauuuuutiful weather!
The skies + green combo was so pretty I took an extra round to cck before going home.

My LTA letter lai liao. Must go online appeal.. sian :(

Vacuuming sucks

2009-08-09T11:59:00.001+08:00

its noisy.
you can't do stairs properly.
you can't do corners properly.
it uses a whole lot of electricity.

happy national day.

or

'naishnal day' - as my P1 niece spells it.

Heart Of Glass

2009-08-09T01:36:00.002+08:00

A sudden unexplainable urge and desperation..
A wish..
I plead..
I hope..

That you appear in front of my doorstep tonight. I miss you.

I am 19! Oh no!

2009-08-07T13:31:00.002+08:00

My mum forgot my birthday!
and she didn't get me anything even after realizing it.

Oh well :/

5th August
Went to chomp chomp with Nick, Azura, Lihao and Baoru then went to the dam after that. lepak abit until my birthday. Good feeling! :)

6th August
Went to school to play soccer the next day, then had dinner or supper or whatever you wanna call it at Holland V after that. Bought beer for them and Thongs got drunk :/ We sat below 2am which was weird. Jimmy kept us entertained as usual. Babe got her Pegasus Bay at $64 only! Smiling smiling only somebody. Straight away open and start sipping haha!

And I have so many comments on facebook and many many texts! :D
Even my dad sent me a text! :D

"I believe that every soccer player should have a good shoe bag" - Joseph, before giving me a shoe bag for my present

"Thats just life" - Shaun Poh going all philosophical on us

"I'M NOT DRUNK!!!" - Thongs, before taking a big gulp of Heineken
"I THINK I'M DRUNK!!!" Thongs, before taking another big gulp of Heineken