Planned, Fretted & gaaaa.
Last minute pang sehs.
Friend angry at me even though it wasn't my fault, while I was trying to make everything right and fit the shit together. Plus one BIG Guilt Trip.
Reckless driving that probably made everyone giddy.
Noise that made it not too pleasant.
Couldn't resist the promise I made to myself and had a s***e. Feel so weak, so useless..
My Ipod doesn't have audio output anymore.
"The Problem is the main board, a replacement is the only fix. Cost of repair is $125.00"
Sat on chewing gum, sat in car, gum stuck on pants, gum stuck on leather.
Probably deserved it. Karma. 'Forced' a friend talk to his crush.
Probably gonna get it from my mum when she finds out.
Haven't been with a girl for soooo long. Actually had to have people to tell me to join her group then I realised. I feel like an idiot. F*** me man. Seriously, what the f***? I'm like a 12 year old kid.
Got home late, that made mum angry again. Only reason I'm gonna stay home tomorrow is cause I'm guilty. I'm so selfish.. Always only thinking of my own 'fun time'.
And at 1+, called her when she was kinda already sleeping. ARGH! Should've known right? A text would've been fine. GHEY KIANG. KILL ME.
Weight on my shoulders.
I type as if I'm the only one with problems.
Everyone has their own demons to settle.
Temporarily titled BALLAD OF YOUR MOTHER...
'With my heart on my sleeve, I take it day by day
I'll raise my glass to this, theres not much left to be taken from me
My eyes are closed, I feel the heat, My arms are heavy, Stomach is sick
My breathing slowed, My feet in tow, My heart it fucking bleeds
I'll start from scratch if I have to
I will rebuild from this nothingness
I'll stand up from once broken knees, I'll hold on with my fingertips
In this city where hope does not exist, I'll keep battling this sinking feeling.
We'll live, We'll fuck up, We'll learn, We'll celebrate
We'll start all over again.. We will start all over again..'
Sorry dear reader if you were expecting chirpy me.