Today has been a fucking hell of a rollercoaster.
It probably isn't that different from most days I have to go through, but something 'triggered' deep down inside. Can't put a finger on anything though. Its just one of those days I guess.
I internally combusted at every little thing that didn't feel right. Internally combusted meaning I took it all inside myself and did not punch anyones teeth out or choked someone to death. I felt so moody, so apathetic. I felt as though everyone wanted a fucking piece of me even though there was nothing left to take.
Don't read this post and think that I'm talking about you though, whoever you are. Its just me.
WHAT THE FUCK!? THIS POST IS LIKE 394273947293047293074293749237424 OTHERS ON 9879283742934729034720394723984234 OTHER BLOGS.
STUPID EMOTIONAL DEPRESSED SHIT THAT NOBODY WANTS TO READ!
Okay okay... but its the truth :(
Somehow managed to 'breathe' later in the day. I think I recover pretty quick from negative emotional situations. I think.
Or maybe, its cause I received a message, several actually, but that one message.. the one that can be summed up as 'i'll be there for you', the one that overflowed with sincerity and concern. It felt warm..
I didn't get to see you today. Mom won't get off my case.
Its so awesome that you understand though.
Listening to your mix cd now :)
xoxo