after dinner arguement
about roads.. turn left?
answer me, simple
but no, you scold
bad memory and direction, yes
not a good enough reason to scream at me though
pick on me, pick on every little thing
maybe its cause we were going over to bro's home, so you get anxious about his wife
cause just the other day you flared up at me on our way there too.
Bloody hell.
always talking about how bad his wife is.. I don't really wanna bother with either of you cause its not my problem. So stop telling me how 'bad' she is, cause somehow since i'm the only one around, you always end up scolding me too for other peoples' faults.
Everything I say you take as me trying to defend her
then your rollercoaster temper came to a stop
its crazy how you would be screaming at me one moment
then ask me if I wanted ice cream the next, like nothings happened
emotionally exhausting. next time im letting you drive
every little thing also kao pei. then when you drive you make the same fucking mistakes
wanted to ask my mum let me drive out when we got back, which was kinda 9ish
almost impossible but willing to give it a try
its not in my 2-piece family's 'style' to go out at this time
thats why when I go school I don't go home till its fucking late cause i'll probably not be able to go out peacefully if I go home first
felt like shit and really really really wanted to see her
maybe grab ice cream for awhile and head back asap
but after a bunch of messages I realise that she has her family dinner
read her blog
shes having a really really bad day too
and nothing bums me out more than to see her bummed out
I sit here typing away, desperate to be somewhere else
desperate to see her though I know that I can't get the car and leave
desperate for some ice cream
desperate for a hug
desperate so desperate im fucking desperate
sanitarium.. just leave me alone