This post is made using the 'think what type what style'
Sorry if you can't follow or understand
'Breakfast' looked horrible with vegetable and green chilli all over.
I'm spoilt and picky.
Then again you can't really say that, cause I eat instant noodles all the time.
I hate sharks fin and abalone too.
Self denial is bad bad bad but its so difficult to say it out and admit it especially when others are involved.
Maybe I just build things up in my head, when its actually really simple if you take it step by step, one thing at a time.
No, not maybe. I do build things up in my head.
Start off the day wondering if mum has 'big&important' enough plans that I have to stay home and not go out. Like if she wants to go to Johor Bahru or something.
I've grown to accept helping out around the house as part of daily life. Random.
I hate Johor Bahru. Don't ask me why, I don't know either. My mum loves that place.
She feels this sense of pressure facing this home that doesn't feel like a home.
When shes not in Singapore, shes more enthusiastic about stuff. I still get scolded like fuck though.
I'm actually not too fond of going overseas. With my mum.
It means leaving everything in Singapore behind for a week or so.
When I was younger, I used to go for the whole duration of the holiday.
That means at least 2 weeks, sometimes a month.
I guess for everyone else its totally cool. Holiday! Celebrate! Family Bonding!
For me, it means spending every single day with my mum, getting scolded for random stuff, not getting to see my friends and just basically an atmosphere of gloominess and desperation to go back to Singapore.
What makes up for it is food. Alot of walking gets done. Then more food. Squeeze with the MTR crowd. Walk. More food.
I don't really like walking that much, not when its a whole day of walking for a whole week everyday.
I also hate waiting in stupid high-end luxury goods stores for my mum cause I don't dress up all that well and I feel out of place. SKATE SHOPS PLEASE!
I hate how she likes to raise her voice at everyone and everything and everywhere.
Makes me feel very paiseh and all I can do is stand there.
And I don't get an LV wallet after all that shit. HAHA.
Actually, I like going overseas :/
But definitely with friends. Confirm.
So here comes the inevitable. Ever since before my common test I've been thinking about it.
I'll have to go to Hong Kong for around a week or so.
Its probably not that big of a deal. But I just can't say it out.
Its difficult la, at least for me.
I'll be leaving someone here for a week.
Its scary.
Not insecure or anything.
But I've never been away from her that long before.
People are probably reading this and laughing, if people read my blog at all.
I know you want to GTFO of the office and if I say this out it won't mean anything if I can't do it.
I wanted to bring you to Sentosa after work today, just to kinda get away or something.
But I might have to go to JB today. My mum won't give me a clear answer.
I'm stuck here wondering what to do. This happens pretty often. Grrrr!
I hear water downstairs. Is mum washing the car? NABEI!
I always say I'm gonna do it. But I like to take my time.
She'll always give me the 'Wait until you do I already wash finish liao'
Cheebei make me feel so useless only.
FUCK! I'm hungry. I didn't eat the horrible looking food.