right now. I don't feel time passing me by at all.
whenever I think about what time it is, all of a sudden things around me freeze.
each day I just shut my mind off, go about doing things mindlessly..
and when its finally night time and I lie on the bed next to a wall..
and realise another day has gone by..
so meaningless, so pointless, so purposeless..
sleepless because I'm in a room filled with cigarette smoke, not mine..
sleepless because the television is just a little bit too fucking loud, not me watching..
sleepless because sometimes tears, not mine, fall to the floor a little too earthquake like..
and all I can do is think of you.